Heidi😊 responding to last night's final comment. I've felt like this for 20+ yrs, but since I lost my job March 23, 2020, the feeling has been magnified. It's so magnified, that I actually stand at the kitchen window and "look out at the world." I know there's a world out there, but I no longer recognize it, feel a part of it, nor want to be a part of it. It's just not me nor does it reflect who I am? I even feel it when I step outside the house. It's like stepping into another world. I have no explanation for it. As hard as this "imprisonment" for the last 4+ yrs and having no car for 2 1/2 of that has been (which every person on planet should experience) I feel God is truly protecting me from the world that I do not belong to. THAT is what gets me through this. Maybe He doesnt want me to "catch" the sickness of the world? I dont know? But I do know this. It's been life changing and as hard as its been? It's been made easier with God and feeling His protection every day. I'm not in a mood to repeat it, but I'm truly truly thankful for it and I'd do it all again, car and all, to stand against the pure, unspeakable evil that's hit this earth. I'll gladly take that stand, for not just myself, but for humanity. Heidi, God has truly carried me. He does this for us all, if we let Him. I feel like an outsider all the time. I feel invisible. I feel like I dont fit. Lots of times not even wanted. It's okay. You will likely feel more of what you're experiencing
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